I want to be free
For a while it took me so long to be comfortable sitting with my own thoughts
Alone
No distractions, no savior, just me
I had to unlearn self hate
Had to bring myself back to equilibrium and get my own strength
So often, I am fighting my own demons
Trying to find my way to a sacred place
I don’t think they understand
How hard it is to pull yourself out of the darkness
To even get out of the bed in the morning
It is hell
Trying to be everything to everybody
Then not having enough for yourself
I want to be free
I want to find solace in the parts of me I dislike the most
I want to be love
I want to be everything within myself I’ve tried to run away from
I no longer want to run
I want to stand
And fight
Be everything I am destined to be.