I want to be free

For a while it took me so long to be comfortable sitting with my own thoughts

Alone

No distractions, no savior, just me

I had to unlearn self hate

Had to bring myself back to equilibrium and get my own strength

So often, I am fighting my own demons

Trying to find my way to a sacred place

I don’t think they understand

How hard it is to pull yourself out of the darkness

To even get out of the bed in the morning

It is hell

Trying to be everything to everybody

Then not having enough for yourself

I want to be free

I want to find solace in the parts of me I dislike the most

I want to be love

I want to be everything within myself I’ve tried to run away from

I no longer want to run

I want to stand

And fight

Be everything I am destined to be.